Pushing Past Insecurity Sucks - But It’s Worth It.
If you saw my video, Top 4 Ways You Could Be Holding Yourself Back in Life, you might have caught what insecurity of mine is/was that held me back in life. If not, you can check out the replay here. I put it in the past and present tense because it’s something that I still struggle with and have to continue to remind myself even now, not to freak out about.
What am I talking about? Acne. Yup, adult acne. I got acne as soon as I hit puberty (around age 12) with lovely pimples up on my forehead. Ok, I thought - I will just get big bangs to cover it up. I heard from everyone that once I was done with puberty, my acne would be a thing of the past and I would have to stress out about a new pimple breaking out every damn day of my life in middle school and high school. I wanted to hide - and I never left the house without coverup.
Then, I got out of my teens and my acne disappeared from my forehead. It then proceeded to move to my chin and around my mouth - and broke out with a vengeance when I was pregnant with both of my children. It never ceased to exist - it was always there. Once my face would look like it was starting to clear - that time of the month would come about and I would get a fresh batch of pimples.
I have tried everything over the counter for acne to fight this battle, but nothing seemed to work. All the over the counter creams would make me break out in night sweats (literally dripping in sweat - gross) and bleach my sheets (something my hubby thinks is alarming at what they put in there that does that).
So, through the past year I have been taking a more natural approach (something that isn’t going to have me drenched in sweat at 2am) and making my own essential oil acne mixture. I LOVE essential oils for TONs of stuff, but using it on my face has been the most effective and gentle product that I have ever found. (I use essential oils in my house for ear infections, mood boosters, bug bites, indigestion, etc.)
On top of that, I’m getting my eating back on point - hence the confession a few weeks ago. Weekly treat night has been getting cray cray since the move back to AZ - my weakness for pizza and sugar has been reignited.
So, I am going to do 12-week challenge of a whole-food plant-based diet to reset and clean out my system. I am hoping that this will clear up my face along with using natural products, but it isn’t the end all be all if my acne doesn’t clear up. Because you know what I found out? Most of the time, no one is looking at the thing that you are insecure about and judging you for it. And if they are - well, they can go kick rocks.
I let this insecurity hold me back for years - thinking that every time I had a new pimple that everyone was staring at it and thought it was dirty and gross. Even now when I have to shoot new videos, I’m always disappointed when I have pimples that pop up, but the difference now is that I refuse to let it hold me back. I brought up my insecurity about my acne to several people and the response was one of surprise. Most people didn’t really notice and certainly didn’t think I was insecure about it.
I was shocked! In my mind people were staring at my face and judging me. So now, instead I push past the insecurity and move forward with what I have planned to achieve. Sometimes I have to give myself a little pep talk, but that’s ok. It’s something that millions of people and myself struggle with, but it can be overcome.
Pushing past insecurities can suck at the time, but it’s worth it in the end. You may feel like everyone is staring at whatever that thing is and make it out to be a massive obstacle in your head. However, the upside is, the more that you push yourself, the more you forget that it’s even there. Whatever insecurity you might have that you are letting hold you back - you can win that battle. You are a warrior.
P.S. Want my all-natural Magic Acne Potion? Click below to get the recipe to make your very own all natural skin care plus moisturizer. I recommend using high quality essential oils and getting organic if possible.
If you’re looking for high-quality, decently priced essential oils - look no further! Here is a link to a company that has INCREDIBLE essential oils for you AND great products for kids too! Check out this family owned company in my home state of Idaho, Plant Therapy.