Failing... with Grace
I haven’t posted something like this in a while. To be honest, I haven’t sat down and written in a while. To be the type of person who likes to keep it real, I have been hiding so that my big mouth won’t blurt out what is bubbling inside. I have been struggling for a while and not utilized my own tools to help myself get back on track. I have been struggling through my own battles and not facing them like a warrior.
Today, I sat down to face the self-sabotage habits that have taken over and then looked deeper at the root of them. Food addiction is an ugly animal that will latch on to any excuse to use sabotage in disguise. Holidays, stress, anger, sadness etc is used to feed the addict inside. The deeper root cause for me stems from not feeling good enough throughout my life.
As I write this, I am scared to admit that I am struggling and what people will think as I feel I am supposed to be the one that has it all together all the time. I’m the one that helps others with their battles, not give in to my own, right? Truth is - NO ONE has it all together all the time - and that’s ok because you’re not supposed to. We have battles we struggle with during life to teach us something and help us grow. I want to grow as a person and learn everyday that I have the gift to do so in my life - so part of that is facing the battle head on.
Today was the last day of the 10-day warrior challenge and to be perfectly honest - I failed miserably. My inner beast screaming at me and scheming on what I could get into almost daily. On my way home from dropping the kids off at school this morning I stopped to get a coffee from the gas station - just the way I like it, with extra creamer. Why? Not because I needed the huge coffee but just to have something to pacify the voice screaming at me.
This is hard to write and admit - but I have to. I have to share that I still struggle with the voice inside - because this battle is NEVER over. Food addiction so strongly resembles drug and alcohol addiction that it isn’t even funny. We would never look at a recovering alcoholic or drug addict and expect that they will NEVER have a slip up. Studies show that 80-90% relapse within the first 4 years. Food addiction is the same way - except you CAN NEVER get away from the thing that triggers you - food.
It is literally EVERYWHERE - and especially this time of year when all the chocolate and goodies are out. If you struggle with this same battle - know that we are in this together. I refuse to go back to the way things were before and I know that if I continue to let the voice rule - that’s exactly where I’m headed.
So, it’s time to declutter. It’s time to stop using the excuse that I am stressed and overwhelmed. It’s time to get my mindset back to warrior mode. It’s time. I know this time around all the tools that will help get me back on track, so I’m going to be sharing them along my journey to get back to healthy mind, body and soul.
If you would like to know more about the tools and join me along the journey, I invite you to join the Warrior Tribe. You are a Warrior & we can continue to conquer this battle together.
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