Why I changed My Mindset
I wrote a piece last night that I was going to post this morning (that happens to be completely different than this) and went to bed, frustrated about having to filter pieces due to profanity rules (side note – you can’t say the f word on FaceBook that many times. haha oops).
As I was doing my journaling early this morning, I got hit with something inside so deep, raw and scary about myself that I knew I was meant to share with it with you. This is something so personal, but I wanted to share this with others that are struggling with depression and anxiety.
The real reason that I chose to change my mindset started several years before I ever even knew that the Law of Attraction existed or how to have it work for you (like magic). Before I ever dreamed that I could coach and help others that were stuck and lost on their own path and how they could change their life, I found that I was lost in my own life.
I was battling depression and anxiety at the time – taking prescribed medications for both. However, the medications didn’t help and I had never felt so lost and hopeless in my life.
I struggled everyday with thoughts of suicide.
I just wanted this life to be over already.
I wanted to go see what the afterlife looked like versus living this life.
There were so many times that I talked myself out of it because of my children. I couldn’t bear knowing that I wouldn’t get to share in their smiles, dry their tears or see them grow. I wouldn’t get to laugh with them, see their first loves or pick up the pieces when things fell apart for them.
I changed my mindset to save my own life.
I wanted to see how the story ends. Really, to write my own story.
To live life.
I truly am so grateful for my children. Otherwise I know that I wouldn’t be here – going so far as to get a tattoo on my wrist of their names (as a silent reminder). Why did I choose to share this with you? Because I don’t think people REALLY talk about it, but I think A LOT of people struggle with these thoughts as well. They just don’t talk about it either, staying silent because they feel embarrassed and alone. Depression and anxiety has become normal in today’s society, but we don’t really stop to talk about those crushing lows when it feels like there is no way out of the dark and you can’t breathe.
When I was going through this dark time – NO ONE KNEW how close I really was because I didn’t tell ANYONE, not even my spouse or my best friend. I felt embarrassed. I should have it all together, I thought – why do I feel like this? Why can’t I just be happy with my life?
I saved my life and treated my depression, digging my way out a little at a time, by changing my mindset. This was the single most POWERFUL thing that I could have done to save myself. It helped me get back to feeling like I wanted to live life again, get up and get dressed for the day AND EVEN shower (which during this time was a rare occurrence).
You can shift your mindset in amazing ways to help you change your life. If you are currently struggling with depression, feeling hopeless or lost, I want you to know that it’s okay to feel like that. There is light at the end of the tunnel though – and you can flick on the switch.
The biggest thing I want to tell you is that you are not alone and changing your mindset truly can change your life. It completely changed mine and so many others.
Whether you want to change your life to have money, a successful job/career/business, your dream life or just to be happy – it ALL starts with changing your mindset. This is the foundation that you build and attract anything you want into your life. So…
Seize the opportunity to create a new life for yourself.
You will be grateful that you did.
This life is definitely WORTH living and there is more than the struggle and darkness.
Flick on that little light at the end of the tunnel and just keep moving towards it.
Choose not to stay stuck in those lost feelings that are inside your own head.
Stand up and help yourself by choosing to always keep moving forward and create change for yourself. Use the tools and help from friends, loved ones, programs, webinars, ANYTHING – trust me, it’s much harder to try to do on your own. You are not alone – so start reaching out and taking back control.
Stop Spinning Your Wheels
Love you bunches,